Life and its moments
Sometimes there occurs a tragic turn
And life seems to have a burden

We become helpless, we become blank
As if every moment is a merciless prank

The situation seems to fall out of place
We lose our normal pace and feel dragged out of race

It happens many times in our whole lifetime
But we ponder over it only sometime

Why does this happen we can’t understand
We feel our life being run by someone else’s hand

Marriage, career, academics all fall prey to this
Making emotions, expectations, aims and ambitions a victim of it

Whatever happens in these puzzled moments of course have different shape every time
Sometimes we are in dismay and pain because of our blood
Sometimes because of someone who was not from our own but who was more than them

It’s only the pain by them that makes us feel as if we were a game
Of course the game was not to be won but to be taken as a lesson



Me, my ways
A name for purity, self- less ness and gentleness
Ah! Not talking about new aqua guard
It’s actually about somebody who is talked with regard

Not because of any position she holds but, the simple things like the way she talks
She had her own share of ups and downs but determined she is to take her life forward with sensible steps
Tender as a flower is her heart, but confused always is her mind

Unable to take right decisions, unable to recognize people are actually her pitfalls
Not ignoring her pitfalls but learning from them will take her to her goals

Living in city but actually living with a village girl’s heart
Makes her different from all this and that

Who is she; she is actually me, inside me

My qualities make me somebody from anybody
But real me is still to make a name for it
To prove its image and identity

This all would have been possible by now
Had I taken my life seriously and planned it sensibly

But no regrets and no looking back it only gives pain
Let it properly vanish, why let it remain

Thinking everyday is a new beginning,
Let me forget everything of the past which is haunting
Troubling me whenever I am alone and aloof
Making me feel insecure and inferior as if I am without any roof
Giving me repeated thoughts of fear of failure
A fear of failure at every coming front

But I sometimes think to give it a proper thought
Why keep fearing all time for coming future
Instead of taking risk sometimes
Come whatever may, it will not make me dismay, I would face it being gay!!!!


Reminiscence
I wonder what it was, why did I do it

Shouldn’t I have listened to my conscience?
But by the time I could realize it, I had already gone ahead a miles
Not in terms of distance but ethics and its science

Of course I didn’t want it to happen
Neither did I have a slightest of hint when it was about to happen
No words no commitments it just happened

Definitely I feel it all didn’t occur because of me only
He certainly was responsible for it consciously or unconsciously

I didn’t feel much about it even when it was over
It was just because of him as he didn’t let me feel the need to recover

It’s only later that the thoughts started pouring
Those were disturbing day in and day out
Not letting me come out of it

He showed as if it were all caring gestures and postures
Anyways it wasn’t just that which was making me feel bad

He even tried to overshadow it during dawn when it was done
I don’t know whether it was overshadowing or what
But it was surely making me feel something
He even talked about it before others giving it the same caring angle

This made me think both the ways
Was he genuine in his speech as he shared it as if
I was in need and he did what was time’s deed

Or since he didn’t want me to think otherwise or talk otherwise
It’s because of it that even before I could talk or speak he made his speech

It no doubt gave me some pleasure, momentary pleasure
But God why the hell I enjoyed it
If it wouldn’t have been the case, I could at least face myself in mirror case.